Starting Fresh, Starting New...I've Moved, So Should You!

I know that I have not written in a while but I got caught up in life, like so many of us do!

But I think it is particularly important for everyone to say "Fuck YOU... I'm doing me!" every once in a while.

You should never feel guilty about taking me time. Believe me, it helps when you've had a long week, month, year, or even decade of always thinking about others and putting every one else first.

So some things have changed since a few months ago. So catch up...

I decided that I needed to follow my own advice and start living for me (See "New Directions" post).

So I did just that. I can say that I really have sacrificed everything that was going "good" to do BETTER!

Stepping outside of your comfort zones, challenges you to really think differently. 

If all you know is what you know, than you know nothing at all.

Remaining complacent in situations, careers, friendships and relationships, only hinders your potential to grow as an individual. Taking action to change your current situations, shows that you are making attempts to do something greater. Even if you do not succeed, you would have at least tired. Nothing is worst than playing the game of "What If." 

I've moved!

Literally, to another city.  

To a better career opportunity.

To a new beginning.

I've started taking those steps to do things differently.

Remaining in familiar territory for too long you eventually begin to blend in.

I've realized that I am a different stage in my life. One that is different from 6 months ago. One that has been progressing forward. I'm not the same person I was a few years ago. Because I've accepted change and I've grown to have a totally different thought pattern than before. Things that use to be so mundane, have begun to interest me. Things I thought I've never did, I've done. Things that I didn't like, I now love. 

I'm realizing that nothing last forever, especially the best of best friendships. No matter how long you know someone, I'm finding it true more and more that you truly never know someone or their intentions. I actually think the longer you know someone, the more likely you are to actually grow apart. Not everyone, but a large majority. Have you ever stopped and notice, that the older you get the less and less long-term friendships you still have? That's life, people sometimes grow a part rather than grow together. 

Pieces of Me: Journal Entry

March 25th, 2004

Sup J,
Tonight was parent-teacher conferences, I had to stay an raffle off Easter baskets. I'm a little mad.
People are just so fucking stupid. Let me tell you about the story of A_____ and H___. Supposedly they messed, talked (higher than friends) or fucked. Everyone seems to be knowing more than me, H__ and A_____. I'm just mad that I let that shit get to me. A____ told me she had a "crush" on H__, as we all know how it can go in 2 directions, 1) continue liking the person 2) stop "crushing" on the person. She told me that she thinks he's cute. I let that shit cloud my judgement. I know that H__ likes A____ but he knows how I feel about the whole situation. Not to say that it's not possible that they do talk, cause you can't put nothing past ANYONE! But I just let it get the best of me and having everyone say shit about it. I asked H__, he denies it.
A____ says it isn't true. So who do I believe? My so called "friend" or my ex-girlfriend, who I still love, or B.L.A Gossip Troop? I'm mad! I chose the B.L.A. Gossip Troop. I know that shit is always blown out of proportion, besides H___ and A____ are the only ones who really knows. I got upset because the Seniors (Some, mainly the noisy ones) was playing the "Truth" game (I like to call it the game of Bullshit!). They said some shit about how they heard H__ fucked A____ (Yeah right) and took her virginity (Oh, fucking please, Bullshit). I know that that shit is all fucking lies all because of people who don't know how to mind their own business. That shit had me laughing in the inside. People really are just so dumb to put their business out there, what the fuck! I only need to tell you (J), D and L, that's all that needs to know. B.L.A. doesn't need to know shit about me. Today makes a 6 months since I've known A____ and it's been 2 months since we've broken up. Today in school I kissed A____. I miss her, but there must be a plan for something. God's plan for us is crazy. D and C____ aren't speaking today (give it a week or two). I was, no L was mad at me. I hate people who think you can't do shit to them when they do shit to you. I'm tired it's late. I'm not going to Virginia. Lata.
-Dae

 

You know flash forwarding to the present, I am glad I learned some of these lessons earlier in life. This Journal entry just reminded my why some of the values I have are in place. I know more about the situation between the two since then which is another pretty interesting blog post which will come later.

I hope that we all realize that sometimes THERE IS TRUTH TO THE RUMORS!

New Directions

So these past few days have been pivotal ones for me.

A lot of self actualization has went on and I realized that I haven't been putting my best interest forward.

So this just means that I am taking those steps to think about ME first. 

I'd like to suggest to anyONE (I don't know how many people read this blog)

do the same. Starting today, starting now. In life you can't please others, until you've pleased yourself.

Don't wait for stuff to happen! Sometimes, it's those moments of action when we realize our fullest potential.

So taking it back to you, ask YOURSELF this one question Janet Jackson asked:

Like A Puppy To His Bone

Like a puppy to his bone
You know how that goes
You toss it, and start the chase
It's the rush and thrill feeling you can't erase
What is it that keeps the puppy running after the bone
What is it that causes a dog to roam
You see the puppy eyes light up, fill with joy
When he sees his bone
You throw it, he chases
He runs and runs and just keeps his focus on the bone
He doesn't realize the dangers around him
Doesn't realize the true enemies surround him
All because he's chasing the bone
Chasing after the dream
Chasing after what used to be
Chasing after the memories
And then he finally catches the bone
And wonders should he leave it alone or bring it back home...

Who The Hell Are YOU?

This seems to sum up my LIFE right about now.

Remember to stay true to yourself, 

because that's one person you can't hide from.

Sometimes we don't want to face things and we fill our lives with things and people,

who at the end of the day... Do NOT Matter!

If your eyes are unable to see YOU when you look in the mirror

You'll need to fix it, so that it truly reflects the "you" 

you are destined to be!

I’m starting to realize you can live life with those you thought you couldn’t live without!

October 31, 2010

I don’t think I ever felt a sense of being under appreciated then I did this past weekend. I don’t seek praise, compliments, or attention. But it comes to a point when you as a person have to know your self-worth even when others don’t recognize it. What is truly disappointing is the relationships I tend to foster with people, only to find out they don’t give a damn if you are a presence in their life. I hate trying to figure out where people stand. You know the cliché, “Reason, Season, or a Lifetime.”  We tend to think we know who is who and whom we are dealing with, but that is truly never the case. Nobody, and I repeat, Nobody is ever how they seem. So why would we expect to know their real stance in our lives...