Pieces of Me: Journal Entry

March 25th, 2004

Sup J,
Tonight was parent-teacher conferences, I had to stay an raffle off Easter baskets. I'm a little mad.
People are just so fucking stupid. Let me tell you about the story of A_____ and H___. Supposedly they messed, talked (higher than friends) or fucked. Everyone seems to be knowing more than me, H__ and A_____. I'm just mad that I let that shit get to me. A____ told me she had a "crush" on H__, as we all know how it can go in 2 directions, 1) continue liking the person 2) stop "crushing" on the person. She told me that she thinks he's cute. I let that shit cloud my judgement. I know that H__ likes A____ but he knows how I feel about the whole situation. Not to say that it's not possible that they do talk, cause you can't put nothing past ANYONE! But I just let it get the best of me and having everyone say shit about it. I asked H__, he denies it.
A____ says it isn't true. So who do I believe? My so called "friend" or my ex-girlfriend, who I still love, or B.L.A Gossip Troop? I'm mad! I chose the B.L.A. Gossip Troop. I know that shit is always blown out of proportion, besides H___ and A____ are the only ones who really knows. I got upset because the Seniors (Some, mainly the noisy ones) was playing the "Truth" game (I like to call it the game of Bullshit!). They said some shit about how they heard H__ fucked A____ (Yeah right) and took her virginity (Oh, fucking please, Bullshit). I know that that shit is all fucking lies all because of people who don't know how to mind their own business. That shit had me laughing in the inside. People really are just so dumb to put their business out there, what the fuck! I only need to tell you (J), D and L, that's all that needs to know. B.L.A. doesn't need to know shit about me. Today makes a 6 months since I've known A____ and it's been 2 months since we've broken up. Today in school I kissed A____. I miss her, but there must be a plan for something. God's plan for us is crazy. D and C____ aren't speaking today (give it a week or two). I was, no L was mad at me. I hate people who think you can't do shit to them when they do shit to you. I'm tired it's late. I'm not going to Virginia. Lata.
-Dae

 

You know flash forwarding to the present, I am glad I learned some of these lessons earlier in life. This Journal entry just reminded my why some of the values I have are in place. I know more about the situation between the two since then which is another pretty interesting blog post which will come later.

I hope that we all realize that sometimes THERE IS TRUTH TO THE RUMORS!